I have officially surpassed my first 2months of working…..1 month of actually practicing.
How does it feel?
I LOVE what I do.
At the end of D4 year in dental school, I’m not going to lie. I had doubts. I hated dentistry. I’m pretty sure I was going through functional depression. I woke up everyday dreading it, wanting patients to cancel, but also wanting to finish school. I hustled hard to fulfill requirements, but I showed up to do them with no enthusiasm. During that time, I wondered if this was what I really wanted to do or was I just tired?
I’ve heard plenty stories of people leaving dental school to pursue medicine or finishing dental school to enter an entire new profession. For awhile, I wondered if that was me.
Even while I waited to retake my licensure I looked at different jobs that I could do. I thought maybe this wasn’t for me.
Boy, am I glad that I listened to God. Throughout this entire process of obtaining my DDS. I questioned myself. Questioned what I was doing, but continued to blindly follow God. When he said fight…I fought. No questions asked.
He knew! He knew what I needed! He knew this was for me!
I LOVE MY JOB!
I love the team that I work with and I LOVE doing dentistry.
Don’t get me wrong…it’s not always easy. There are a few times I go home thinking what I could have done differently in a situation or how I could have convinced a patient to get treatment that was absolutely necessary to their oral health. I have had to redo crowns and even call patients back to the office after I think about something I’ve done that wasn’t my best work. But I’ve learned that it comes with the territory of not only being new, but being a dentist. My co-workers still have time where they redo restorations or call a patient back to the office and that has made me feel..SO MUCH BETTER! Initially, I thought I was horrible. I thought how could I be such a bad dentist. How could I get better, but I learned that it happens and it will never go away!
While working this one month, I have seen so much growth in myself. Increasing speed, learning what to treat, reading patients, and getting them to understand the importance of their oral health.
I started off babying the teeth. Taking 30 minutes to cut a crown prep. Now, I can cut a 3 unit bridge and crown in 30 minutes!
I started off wanting to do extractions, but a little timid because I hadn’t really extracted a tooth since last March or April on my last oral surgery rotation in school. I kept sending them off to the oral surgeon. Can you believe I just recently extracted 7 teeth on one patient? And that started a domino effect. I’m now saying ‘yes’ to almost all extractions except 3rd molars. It’s just like riding a bike….so easy to start again! It’s just AMAZING!
I’m at the point now where I want to second guess myself less and less and continue to learn! Just because I have graduated doesn’t mean I stop learning. My next fear to overcome are root canals! Of course I’ve done them, of course I know how, but they are tedious. I’m afraid of tedious, but I’m ready!
Did I say? I LOVE my job!